Losing Flips

Spent the last week muddling around and visitng my uncle at the hospital. Things were very touch and go for awhile, and this week we are still at the same impass as the last. My aunt signed off on a non-rececitation agreement, so now we are sitting back waiting for him to either pass, or come out of the coma. A few nights ago, they called everyone in to say their goodbyes when it looked like he was having brain swelling, but it subsided, and now we are back to square one. Sigh. It is an impossible decision as to what should be done at this point, and I can't help but feel completely helpless and useless as far as this goes. There is no peaceful decision that can resolve this, so we are reduced to this anticipatory, reactive state of waiting for the next big situation and hoping things will resolve one way or the other.

I signed up on Blue Fire Poker last night after getting back from the hospital. Ashley read Harrington on Hold'em while I watched training videos, so it made for a pretty laid back Sunday. There was alot of decent content on BFP, but with everything going on, I found it hard to concentrate on getting the most out of each video. I probably will have to go on again in the next day or so, and re-watch to try to get some of the finer points that I might have missed. But so far I am pretty happy with my purchase.

I played a bit online too. I broke even, or was slightly ahead in the SNGs that I played, but got burned in the $55 rebuy, and after winning about 2 buy ins at 100NL, I got murdered by flips in $50NL. AK vs 55, QQ vs AK, AQ vs JJ. It was pretty annoying, and I probably tilted off a bit more then I normally would. Again, at the moment its hard to keep everything in check as nicely and neatly as I normally do.

This week is the Super Bowl of Poker at Sycuan. All week they are running, tournys of varying sizes, so I will be grinding those this week, and probably hoping into the side action whenever I should have an early exit, which hopefully will be never! But its always best to prepare. With any luck, I will get my head on straight, and get back into the swing of things. The bankroll is hurting a bit because of the last few weeks of inactivity, and break-even sessions. I need to make a bit of cash, because I think crunch time is coming at work, and I need to come up with some cash to keep myself going.

Just gotta take one step at a time. One foot in front of the other. One hand, before the next.